cant wait!!

where we at? where we at? i love this place...ooo new york!! ahaks ONE DAY!!

trying hard...BUT

didnt have the equipment..
didnt have the (kemudahan=cant get the word..uhu)
dint have the money

that lead to all the problems

kain terbakar - pike bende lain
terlupa kerja - sebab banyak kali tangguh sebabx de kemudahan
termiss dateline- sebab kemudahan memeainkan perasaaan

and banyak lagi...most important terkecewakan diri sendiri!!

sick of myself

hahha...wat the hell!! life is so round. somtimes u'r down sometime u'r up!!! and currently im in the downside path of my life. all the problem was created by myself. yes i am!!! huh!! tired if making choices and tired of being responsible and tired of being trying all the time that didnt lead to any good conclusion. though it still can be fix..but i do need a strength and a voice that motivate and say i can do it.huh!! tired of being the one who pushing it but end up nothing positive accur. haiyak....

but..im still in the middle of it. i should fight to the last breath.yaaa..it an easy word to say and type but it is a very hard situation to achieved!! haiyak. but still..i can fix it!! i can push and make it happen as what i need it to be....want it or the other way round. it all in my hand. hmmm....wat else can i say. that is what life is.

i need the upside phase of my life back!! haiyak..need it damn badly!! ive never imagine looking up is so miserable rather than the other way round. this neediness makes me ill!! huh!!! so frustrated and so heartbroken while seeing other achieved things while im not! imagination wont be able to exposed this kind of feeling!!
if only the word "if" doesnt exits. just straight to the finish line. then it wouldnt be so called LIFE!!ahaks...


not so strong,
farisya nadiah!!