Perjalanan Hari Itu

Hari-hari semalam berlalu..

ada yang ku perlu perbaiki,

bangunku ade juga jatuhku,

semalam aku lupa setia,

padamu yang Maha Esa.

Hari ini aku kembali kembara,

dibumi penuh suka duka,

kau titipkan ganjaran besar,

semangat ku kembali membara,

tapi sayang aku lupa,

kucup Egkau dengan Alhamdullilah.

hari itu, sedang leka aku bernyanyi,

runtun bahagia yang ku pura,

kau datang dengan kalamMu,

aku pasti aku sedar kau datang menyapa,

namun aku biarkan kau berlalu saja,

tanpa menyambutmu, peluk erat dekat padaku.

apakah aku lupa, semua yang telah kau titipkan,

dalam ruang halus hatiku,

bahwa kau lah kekeasihmu , tiada yang lain

tak pernah ada yang lain,

Ya Allah ampunkan aku, 

datangkanlah saat kemudian untuk ku perbaiki,

apa yang ku harus dan perlu ingat selalu,

tiada Engkau, tiada aku.

Regards,

Farisya Musa

On-Track

Assalamualaikum.

Hello! Hello! Hello! (Beyonce-ish)

What should I write today, I have no specific by the way. In writing here, i believe this the only freedom that is granted to me to write anything that i wanted without plan. from heart to the keyboard and to the screen. Sometimes, i guess that is the reason why I love to write. From a start in writen Diary to this new tech, typing diary. im just in love with it.

Other than it can keep your memory to the certain emotion on that certain time, i fing this is helping us to keep on track to learning ourselve better and do things better in future. We keep our mistake to learn no to repeat that mistake again and also we keep our happy moment in form of emotion to let us be thankful of that day. im glad finally ive realising how important 'you' are in my life. it mostly potraying how im sure i want to be better in myself in any way posible. Insyallah, in Allah's help, i wish ill be better from time to time.

As i read back my homescreen, ive found that ive  been expressing myself for about aproximate 7 years to you. What a long journey. There were  ups and down in my life. That graph contributed to where i am today. i know im not as mainstream as people always eager to follow, but im glad somehow ive show myself that i am what i am. im glad that ive growing to that certain level of life. im not what people expect me to be and i dont expect people to be what i want to be. Thankful of that thouht that Allah gave to me. Alhamdullilah.

Insyallah, there are long road to go. im in a process to boost up my power in Allah's will. im clear to the journey that i have to face. im clearly know now my purpose in life and i hope i could maintain to the very best and may Allah protect me from my mazmumah all the time. may that spirit always be with me.

What i really need to do now, is not afraid to mirror it out. Amin

Regards,
Farisya Musa

Talking to Only You

Dengan nama Allah aku hidup, Dengan nama Allah aku bernafas, Dengan namamu aku bangun pagi ini dengan hendakmu. 

Syukur alhamdullilah, kau bangunkan aku dari tidur lenaku untuk ingat kamu.Hanya padaMu Allah ku pohon. Hari ini kau jadikanlah aku manusia yang mengingatimu dan berguna untuk alam yang kujalani ini. Pinta kau tunjukan jalan yang kabur didepanku, kau kuatkan semangat juang ku, dan kau berikan aku tenaga untuk menjadi anak yang berbakti pada ibubapaku, keluarga, sahabat dan semua umat manusia yang kau telah jadikan untukku.

Jika itu takdir yang telah kau tentukan, kau tiuplah rasa cinta dan syukur padaku agar aku sentiasa ingat itu datang atas hendakmu, maka tentulah ia baik untuku. Moga aku sentiasa ingat kerana aku manusia yang mudah lupa jika diri ini bukanlah milik diriku melainkan sepenuhnya milikmu. kau jadikanlah orang disekelilingku selalu tenteram dengan kehadiranku, dan kau temukanlah aku rahsia bahagiamu ketika ku berada disamping mereka.

Ya Allah, adakah aku manusia yang berguna dimatamu? adakah aku manusia yang kau sayang? 

Kau ampunkan aku ketika aku lalai ingat padamu, jika aku lupa akan nikmat yang diberikan olehmu, aku lupa dunia ini hanyalah sementara, aku hindar akan tanda-tanda yang kau kurniakan danjuga pangilan-pangilanmu untuk ku pulang kepada mu. aku manusia yang ingin memperbaiki diri dekat padamu. Namun aku masih lemah. Moga kau sentiasa ampuni aku dan sentiasa tidak jemu memberi hidayah pada hambamu yang serba kurang ini tanpa kuasa cintamu.

Amin

Regards,

Farisya Musa

Digest

Im as 26 turn 27 - Words

Hello! Hello! Hello!

Recently, my observation to sounds and word have became extremely sensitive. Once, I've caught up myself singing Najwa Latif's songs over and over again, in my head of course. It keep on playing it own track repeatedly with a no stop button. I just could not help it. My day with Najwa Latif's song what end up not terribly bad but quite hectic and jammed in my mind. To much thing going on inside i supposed.

Continuity to that, recently which is yesterday, I've accidentally came across to the unplanned movies that consist tremendous inspirational words which happen hardly glued to my mind till now. i don't know either it is stuck to me blindly or my it is just fit my soul now.

" 27 is the age where most people tends to make a biggest decision in their life"

That phrase which i think proven to the badmouth of  my inner side. it is somehow i could not agree not to agree. ive knot my head several time. This is when i know, ya maybe thing did not come across to you accidentally, "Things happen for a reason". For my case it is proven.

in my head im full of sinful dreams. i know im quite silly when all you can do is dreaming. Why have to be afraid? I know that. A question just keep on lingering on my mind until i came across some article about one designer that ive recently attending his fashion show.

" A young 22 years old law student that highly passion in fashion......blalalal" 

Hey how such thing. that law student who have nothing basic in fashion also can do it. do mind my language, i just tend to get more angrier to myself in a good way. Why you should afraid to the world that have everything to offer to you?. Why u should limit yourself?. That is what stab my mind lately. Eventually it get my head up straight back to the line that ive always wanted. i did nothing wrong by just doing it.

Like what my ustaz has mentioned, this life only have to ways. Hard and Easy, either way you have to face it. What you need to do is walk to that way accordingly. You can not change the road that have been given to you and there is no way out by not walking to it. If you tend to get hard way, what you need to do is be patience to it no matter what. It may want to teach and let you learn a lesson that have not you know yet. But if you have an Easy way, be thankful and syukur to the opportunity that is given to you. Appreciate what you have and what most important is your existence to life have it own purpose. it is either you take it good way or the other way round. 

I felt complete! Alhamdullilah for all the blessing. Though i know im not quite THERE yet but im in my way to facing that road again. what i need to do is blessing and passion. Not easily brake by those cruel emotion but face the world strongly have faith in myself again. i hope i could do great by just living my life.And i struggling hard to maintain this feel and mindset and i hope Allah granted me that too. Amin.

Below picture is a reminder to myself. i hope it stick in my head as what Najwa song did to my brain and mind.

Love & Hope,

Farisya Musa