Hela Dunia Kecilku

Malam ini, aku baru mengerti,

Terlintas dihati lalu aku kaji, 

Ya benar dunia bukanlah setiasa berduri, 

Cuma aku leka ukur baju dibadan sendiri, 

Atau aku belum celik dari bermimpi,

Bahawa dunia kecilku belum gagah berdiri, 

Di hela dunia kuku besi.

Atau aku harus kaji buat bukti?

Hela,

Farisya Musa

Takut

Subhanallah....

Aku takut, adakah aku manusia yg x mengenal erti nikmat? Atau adakah aku manusia yg tidak pandai bersyukur? Aku resah, adakah mungkin langkah ku hanya bertemankan jurang? Atay adakah hati ku tebal menanam benci? Atau aku lelah menanti penat?

Aku takut aku tidak bersyukur dan aku takut aku mempersiakan...! Jelaskanlahh!!

Gundah, 

Farisya

Keep Hoping

I dont know, lately i cant sleep without thinking of having a trip at a life somewhere that i dont belong yet. It is getting scarier when to think of i cant make it to that exact point where i know i want that damn badly. Im just a few step ahead to it. That is what make me more uncomfortable lately. 

To be honest, im trying the best i can to fix my problem here and i found upony long lost dreams and back to believe it againn. I know i shouldnt pur much hope right now but ya im just a normal human being trying to figure it out the posibilities of trying to fix everything here. 

Im wishing to that day wil finally meet. Ii need to fo my very best tomorrow. Lets dont jinx it and dont forget to not take any coffee before that and sleep at the right time and BREATHHH! Im cryong inside to think if i couldnt make it im gonna be more sad than i currently am. 

Hope, 

Farisya Musa

6.03 AM

Hey..

It is now 6.03am in the morning, just woke up from a long deep sleep with a thinking of what have i did all this while? Until when im gonna be like this..? Is it gonna take forever for me to able to realise that this need to end! Wasting my yong life with all this nonsense of waiting somethin that is not gonna happen? Untill when im gonna make myself suffer like this? Untill when im gonna keep on giving excuses in order for me to escape the reality of a real world? Or realising that this words are not only just a statement as nice as it sounds but a direct warning for me to wake up and a hard slap for me to be awake!! What else that are you waiting for?? What els that you need? What lse escuses that will you compose this time?? Have you not been tired already now? Tired of all this escape plan? Because form what im experiencing now it didnt change a bit!! I didnt move a bit! Im safely stuck in the time where world become enemies! And ive llost a dignity and sense of being a great human. Worst, ive lost the manual of how to be a human! I hate to this roller coster of emotion! It sux big time! Im confused and im really meet to the dead end.

Should i drag my whole body to fully awake and get a shower, drinking a hot nice coffee the down to the road and have great morning jog or should i just get back to sleep. This is a huge decision that i need to do now!! Which one? 

Nescafe, Great Conversation and Best Friend

hey....

two glass of nescafes, a good conversation with a great friend are the most simple meds to cure my unstable emotion about myself. im relieve that on the day that i feel bad about everything in my life, there is always a distraction to it with only a simple method to be applied.WHEN THINK GOOD YOU WILL BE GOOD!

all that unnecessary unstable emotion can be defeated with only a good positive thinking. i know that and i know i can change and achieved it. im currently am. im happy to the first move and what i need to do is to sustain it to my daily routine. please don't be carried away to the darkness that always envy about your bright future. i know i can change to be better. i should be happy and must look forward to be a "super-stylish future me. i know it along journey but yup im happy im not sitting there and wait . im positively happy to wake up in this darkness and pursuing my scramble pieces of dreams this early morning. I MUST MEET THEM. 

a fall is only make you stronger. learn from it and always thankful to the day of that day, because for it reason make you more appreciate things in life. emotion only leads you to something that is nonetheless than a sweet dark misery. and for future undertaking, u just need a great positive thinker.  please make a great hot kiss to those yesterday's chapter. please be aware that you have been upgraded to the new level in life. if there are something bad happen in future, please deal with it with a nice sweet smile and swept it away in just one click of finger. SNAP! been there done that. 

i know you wont hate yourself for so long, because the reason you hate yourself doing that past mistake is that you loved yourself and always be. i know....there is a long way to go.. but above that im back again to this dreams explorace. 

azan subuh is currently reciting out loud through the fresh air breeze morning of mine. hope ill fill in my day today with a good and productive day ahead. start with cleaning would be good, just to get rid of that unnecessary old negative dirt vibe. KACHING!! white and positive.!! :)

love,

farisya

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