question : HAVE U DID IT??

HAHAHA.....it is funny though at first time i heard it from ur mouth!!! wat kind of question is it??? and wat it suppose to mean?? haha....and wat worst i cant believe that i heard it from u? FROM u? ya...dis is not funny but yet i found it is more complex than u think it is.

the answer must be something like this:
1) i must be the most KUNOS women ever..
2) im a total geek about it..
3) ......shocking...........
4) YUP!! I NEVER THOUGHT SOMEONE close to me WILL ASKING THIS QUESTION TO ME!!
5) still speechless

yup!! i knoe this kind of funny and normal to u...but through dat journey...im asking myself again and again...should i answer..or should i not!!>???

TRUTH
should i tell u the truth...cos it will be so ridiculous to answer!! wat so special of that matter until u seems so proud to say about it loudly!! becosi know it seems an easy question...but ya...the way u handle and asked it to me...dat really matter!!! i dont noe wat are u thinking.im not a little girl anymore my dear friends. and i dont think dat questions are relevent to us anymore!! wahahah...so small matter but yet when u end up asking me about it with a total judgement, wahaha...i dont see it as a normal QUESTION anymore. haha..do u proudly said dat u have done it and u must be more experiance than me?? should i have to act like that or the question itself show that meaning indeed. huh i cant think more...yup im deal this life with higly imagination of mine. but to be true...im dont consider myself so AMBITIOUS about it!! yup totally...

LIE
hahahaha..i noe wat are u guys thinking...hahaha...im totally kidda of virgin merry and lack of experience in life!!! wahahah....kelakar....the way u projest it to me iu can really guess wat u guys are thinking~~~ wahhaha...kelakar sunnguh la isu nie~~ adei!!! and u guys must be kidding me!! adeyh

but the main point is.........wat is so important for me to answer that question??? to knoe me deeply??? or just to checked out me wether im use to it or not!!! hahaha...and plus all the assum[tion that u guys made to me..haha totally corrupted!!!

FYI!!
my life is not based on how many people i go out and how many people i date!! seriously it is not been my hard time langsung!! plus....yes i have alot of thinngs dat i imagine!!! i use it all the time!!! every single minute!!! BUT to be true...i DONT THINK IM USING ALL MY ENERGY TO THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING FOR THEM!!!! 0.001% seriuosly...i dont have to be worried if i have done wrong to anyone or i have cheating on him or called, pretending,mrs perfect,dump all my ambition just for them and so many to listed!!!!! i got nothin to make me as ammusement to them and let me be in the zone of pleasant. i have nothing to hide and nothing to be ashamed about myself!!! dat my guarantee...i knoe this is not the time for me yet!!! and one day...i will!!! who know wat gonna happen to our future!!!

actually it is hard for me to describe all the solid feeling about this matter...but ya!!! i think dis is sometime i have to let it out!! and i have mu own way of thinking about thins matter...if u as afriend of mmine...u shouldnt be asking me that question again!!! and throw all the judgement about me dat day....becos i knoe im not a perfect human but im trying to be a human here!!! there always pros and cons to be wat we are!!! i dont have wat u get and u dont have wat are mine!! so i respect u and u should be the same way too!!!

hahaha....i noe it seem a huge matter for me when u read dis....but sadly to say dat...dat day while we are trying to bond to each other and get closer to each other...u make a bad move!! that time i feel far apart from u rather than i feel it any other time!! hahaha..yup!!!


p/s: haha...1st half of this is qiute merepek...so it is due to some emotional ntah ape yang berlaku!!! so and malas to edit!! so...ya!! it is a draft!! wat the hell is wrong with that risght!!!

love,
farisya nadiah

akirnya~~~

lame gile keep on searching who sing this so...today,finally..found it!!

from sabhi sabdi..nadiku!!!

wink2!!


love,
farisya nadiah

IF COME TO LOVE.....

ILL SURRENDER....
NOT MY FIELD OF EXPERTISE
N YET STUPID N DUMB!!!!


LOVE,
FARISYA NADIAH

PEE DEE WEWEWE~~~

thanks for the memory....

love,
farisya nadiah!!

TOTALLY MOTIVATED!!!

hello there....
hahah..today have been a wonderful experience for me....
wahaha...
im started my life just with a simple lazy wakeup...
enjoying the very least day of waking up late before the semester begins...
replied a text from besties to meet up for a lunch later on the afternoon.
hahahah....but i dont ever wish to be tremendous happy along the day afterwords cos i know life is such a long and pain journey. but yah...i have found my way of how to appriciate simple things in life...

heheh..after an argument of where to have the lunch..final choice was at the foudcourt. hahah....wat a lazy choice instead.but wat really matter was having a luch with besties and talking nonsense and looking at the person's dress wa the bestest part of it.

hmmm yaa....looking forward to go to the saloon after an ancient time of not going due to some money and time problem..as u no...im a student with a limited money with a high expectation...and ya..finally found the bestest choice of the day....dat crowded and yellowish, ancient and smelly-unwell-dry-towel saloon.hmm....in my head...ya...this is just the same litle saloon that ive been walk in before. unprofessional stylist, china-jinjang-ish saloon.hmmm...and OK ILL JUST GIVE THEM A TRY.....


UNTILL THEN.....heheheh the motivator arrived...heheheheheh....who can guess one day u gonna sit beside that little bloody-handsome and ashy-gorgeous men alive in world in the same saloon.OWH IKHWAN...u totally make my day!!! thank u very much!!!! though seeing u in that same mirror of us....but im totally manage to draw a huge smile to my face.wink2!!! who knows we met again in that chair of mine after the warm handshake of us right after the MIFA fashion show last time.WEHEHEHEHEEHEHEH!!!! and ya...im become more bubbly than ever since...wehehhee...

but looking up to the mirror looking at u are not actually the main point of what i wanna share here....though i noe it is still make me hardly to breath...BUT....

in life..everything can happen.TODAY< TOMORROW OR EVEN to the future....it always there for u. either u searching for it or not....it can simply come to ur life and wat really matters....just enjoy ur life in whatever simple things occurs cos someday...u might told yourself, that was the happiest moment of your life than no one can ever bring back to you. everything will be the remembrance.and whatever happen today....are for the future.REMEMBRANCE.




so ikhwan....thanks for the remembrance of looking at u in the mirror and thank for choose the wise choice of seating next to me.and also...looking at u just give a fully MOTIVATED spirit which nearly drown in the whole critism empire of mine. and suddenly...imfully alive and cant hardly wait for what gonna happen next!!! THANK YOU for ur existance. wink2!!


P/s: u never know, ur exixtance might be a motivation and slef help for other!! hopfully there are one!!! wink2

love,
farisya nadiah

AN ADRENALIN STARTER!!!

EMINEM-NOT AFRAID



im not afraid to take the steps...
no more drama from now on.....


stronger love,
farisya nadiah

before the new semester begin!!!

COMMUNICATION& MANAGMENT

including this coming semester....its already been 5 terrible years im with UITM...and hopefully gonna wear my graduation hat again by end of next year...HOPEFULLY..amin!!!

hmm....its been tough and difficult time around my semester break.where im in my practical training with FOREVER 21 at PAVILLION.hmm....tough as in....dealing with human and drama.hahah..such thing were most difficult thing to handle compare to the job itself. and plus...communication and power of manipulate things are low for me. but yes...i admit one thing that i think im suitable in....which i LOVE to arrange and settle up the puzzle and messed up wire!! that is what i think myself could contributed in!!

dealing with people in different environment and mentality was such a bigger task but yet i think i managed to talk watever i felt wrong and suppose to change. and yes, I DID CONTRIBUTED something to the company and now it is up to them to do the rest of the work!!! aas u noe im just an inter, thank you!! but mr manager ya...ill remember u always.ull be my biggest role model of not-to-be-like. wink

SELF-HELP& MOTIVATOR

i can see that now people are not satisfied with all the talent that i have.the reason is just one....i dint show them wat i have IN ME!!! it just only the outest layer of me im showing. just wait and see.,...

JUDGEMENTAL

but to my dearest lecturer...u cant simply judge me...TYPICAL PJrians ATTITUDE!!! u didnt deserve to say that..and u didnt deserve to show me the way of being succes....NOT EVEN A SINGLE STEPS...how can i be free to be what i want to be if u guys just stuck in that litle room of urs WHILE HAVING SNACKS IN UR BOG MOUTH and talking and gossiping about ur student and didnt even give a chance for them to talk and defend themselves. LET forget about everything and LET THEM start a new life ahead. while on the other hand WHICH IS THE WORST, the student are fully motivated than she ever know she is that time and trying to gain more motivation from so called LECTURER/MOTIVATOR. to bad, u are not even listen to them far from understand them!!! is it consider u are educating them??? it is far from teaching but bias-ing. everyone and every student deserve to be better. it is depend on them. ur job there is to GUIDE them...not JUDGE!!! issit fair??? and even worst u didn't give them a chance to be themselves and handle everything according their way!!! EVERYONE IS NOT THE SAME..u must have the plan and back up in dealing with this such people!!! as u noe u are LECTURER.u must be better at it!!! and YAAAAA...EVERYONE ARE NOT THE SAME!!!!

SELF HELP AGAIN!!
and yes my dear SELF, i dindt deserve to swallow all the respons where i think i shouldnt be...cos i noe i have the right to speak up!! not to be rude...but ya...im a DEGREE student now..im not a kid anymore and im not a person than just knock myhead down every single time im asked to do so.....and YES i have to speak out!! as like i've learnt...idea is something u cant hold to urself...it is wat need to be thrown!!! same goes to my VOICE too......and imnot stupid and im not blind either!! i have eyes, i have brain, i have heart, and i have my INDIVIDUALLY WAY OF THINKING!!! that is most important thing.....and im not going to plan to be a defensive person....but sometimes it is a must!!!!

lovely ever,
farisya nadiah