LOOKING FOR THE OTHER SIDE!!

Hmmm….lately I’m totally breaks into two!! Don’t really now why….and maybe I don’t even know that I’m in that situation. Hopefully it is not bad as what it seems. haha….

Hmm…first of all, related to my education. Yah…I’m not in a mood in school and work. I don’t even know why I can be in this zone!! Hmmm…am always passion on it but at this moment I don’t feel to do it at all. There is no other crap thing leads me to this…it is just that now is the moment I spent with myself…just myself. Myself have been neglected myself around this past years. And I’m in away to cure it. Maybe Ill be better next semester, hopefully.

Second of all….I’m really interested in making money. it is ok either business or part time job. But I’m looking forward to have a part time job. at least I have some extra money to get trough my day. I’m not feeling the best of myself if I’m still begging money from mum and dad. I don’t feel cool at all. I want it to be my own money. So that I will satisfied when I’m using it. Hahahha….watever la kan!!

Thirdly…. I try to make myself the best of the best among friend, family, and others. But I think I can’t satisfy everybody. I just realize that I have to make it my own in a way to get it all. Don’t just sit there and waiting everything going to happen. I can’t be good and the best to others. It was really hard and burdening me. So I have decided that, ill make it my own and have space for only myself. Ill always put me at the first thing in my list. Ill be as selfish as I can in a way to put me first. Just myself.

There are to much in my head right now…which coincidently I cant let it out because this is me, FARISYA. Alone with the things in my mind and never let it out straight. But what I’m sure right now is that….i wants to be success in everything I do. Of course I have too. Who doesn’t? Plus, I want to promise myself that ill be better next semester and ill never give up and never scared in doing anything that I feels right. No obligation and no compromise with something which I’m sure it is totally mine. I have to let it out and no need to be worried if people judge me. I need to be judge instead to make me better. Next semester will be the it year to make the move that u have been admiring along time ago.

I’m moving forward and no turning back and no word as regret in my life anymore. Move on and enjoy every second of it. GUD LUCK and have at least a piece of time just for yourself. Ill appreciates it

Lots of love,
FARISYA NADIAH

07 april