Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

dreamS~~



somehow it is not a big mistakes if our life are full of dreams that surely was apart from ourself where we somehow forget to do it so. when i was a small kids backthen...im always looked myself out from my playground and cooking-play area. wondering wat will it be outside the surrounded skies of mine.wat will be the road leads us.is there any death end to it?? owh n i even thought about y the name of everything in this world are called by it supposed to called.y cant it be wat i want it to be.i can call a chicken as a house rite? y it always wrong and rules!!

bacnk then i was hoping to go JAPAN!! that was my first biggest ambition where i thought that will be the greatest things if it happen to me. hahah...hoping i just can flew there and just cut my hair. all by the influence of TAKUYA"S story. haha..but then..i think it was a big dreams that lead me to where i am today...i do ope i cant have a chance to see the outside world with my very own eyes and inner values. it will always be my dreams until even todays. fuh...it is along journey..but i do wish it will come true sooner or later. cos everything will never be never!! hehe...

later on that time....i wrote all about my ambition that i need to accomplished before my 30th birthday. some of it are hilarious but most of them was a good one actually.

n i hope i will always full of hope and dreams where everything that i hope and dreams are something that encourage me to go where i gonna stand someday.

P/s: it remind me of my younger brother, ewan..he used to destroy my mummy's sewing machine by imitating the sound of a racing car just like this.haha funny..hanger will be the gear...kekeke..:)

love,
farisya nadiah

PLAY MORE LEARN MORE



somehow i do feel some communication towards the campaign. the chemistry it just there. and somehow i do have to LIKE if there any likes button to this campaign. and from my point of view, this campaign really bring something to the society and even to myself.

if these campaign can make someone understand about everything in my mine....i would probably say..EXACTLY YES!!! and hoping that someone will always knows about everything. not just at the surface of the acting and framing...but the message that i need them to understand that i really wish they knew.

there is no way of no ways.......cos earth is round.u just have to turn over n find the other road if u meet the dead ends!!

love,
farisya nadiah

WiNt3R hOliDay~~








hahah.....winter @malaysia...??? AWSOMEE!!! lalala...
by da way..this is actually at BUKIT CERAKAH RUMAH $ MUSIm!!

kat cnie pon jadiklah kan untuk bergumbira bersama teman!! lalala...


love,
farisya nadiah

Thursday, December 23, 2010

adAkaH aKan BErtemu Jodoh..??





in love,
farisya nadiah

ROund A BOUT~~

haha...dis is not exactly wat is in ur mind. roundabout that u used to see in te street or on ur way to ur school kind of roundabout...

i would interpret it for the journey of my life...yup!! in this two years of having a degree in fashion design...which i tought would be as the same street as my diploma's, it happen differently. moving around and around and around almost 2 year was a tiring journey. quiet frankly...DIZZY and FED UP!! i cant wait to be back in the road that lead me to home. or at least a long highway that lead me to the main area that i noe i headed too. confusion and difficulties of knowing the right path n signboard make me mad about myself and yes, to everyone in the same car. and even mad when u know the other car beside u knowing exactly where thier turns...3, 6, 9 or 12 o'clock.it built temper and depression though i know im using a better ride than them. hahaha...

but yup....i understand that i have gone far this way and actually work harder rather than hope harder for everything to be crystal clear for me. no excuses cos everyting that i venture....i must completed with a proud throphy to show to myself and u know wat it means to u.not for everybody but just for ur uwn dignity and specification.

the harder it will be the the more blury for the existance of QUIT. INSYALLAh.



love,
farisya nadiah

Saturday, December 18, 2010

in LOVe



the story line, the power and spirit and also all the costume make my heart melt away. the romantic,loyal nor togetherness beaten my heart.




THE YOUNG VICTORIA



Love,
farisya nadiah

fantasticing :P







watever happen..i noe we always not in the same zone time :P but yup!! i do love u guys!!! :P

love,
farisya nadiah

Not Alone



somehow..it stuck in my playlist since ages ago...
but lately...i kept on repeating this song over n over again.
it give me courage and it give me strength...
thoug i noe it show definite the opposite way.
yup...i just felt that way..

smile

love,
farisya

STABIL

HELLO..selepas hari2 mendung yang berlalu...im back to writing..walaupun sebelum2 nie..aku ade rase untuk menaip tapi aku had kan ianya hanya pada papan skrin mata ku shaja..kerana apa yang aku paham, a story wouldnt be as exciting as the first time it been told" so that why ive decided not to do it so. hmmm....until today aku rase perasaan aku mungkin sudah kembali stabil. yup mungking permulaan kestabilan.

aku x perlulah berterus-terusan begini walaupun aku rase sometimes i need it. yup...i would rather tm taking care about my self more than other.x perlu lah aku membahagiakan orang lain selain diri aku..yup aku perlu carikan kebahagian aku dahulu.. mungkin bagi dia, akutelah ceritakan semua. but yup...i cant tell everything about it. i just cant!! n sometimes i wish i could.but i understand...it is speacially kept to me, just myself!! it is a precious lesson i should kept and remember.

x semua bende dalam dunia nie akan terjadi mengkiut ape yang kite hendakkan. dan bagi aku...aku xperlu semua fame dan kehebatan yang ada pada orang lain..sebab kehebatan aku mungkin aku sendiri belum pasti apa.dan yang pasti ianya tetap ada pada sesiapa. apa yang perlu aku lakukan......bersabar dengan segala ujian yang telah ditetapkan dan berharap semuanya akan dilalui dengan tenang dan bijaksana. itula yang akan mecorakkan kehidupan dan personaliti ku kelak. mungkin bagi orang lain ianya lebih mudah untuk digenggam...tapi apalah sangat nikmat yang tidak berbekalakan usaha dan azan yang tinggi.ianya akan berbaloi juga kelak. lambat ataupun tidak.....ianya pasti peroleh kejyaan.

yer aku tau, ayat aku semakin "buku" hahahaha.....but sometimes i felt fun writing in my own languange..heheheheh!!!

bagi anda2 yang rasakan kepedihan anda adalah segala2 untuk ditanggung...anda hanya perlukan penghayatan lain pula untuk kepedihan orang lain. sebab kepedihan kite berbeza2 dan jangan jadikan ianya sebagai batu pengukur. u dont need mouth to talk..u just need ear to listen and heart to feel the same. and there, u maybe find that, life is just a fair and same place for everyone.

love,
farisya nadiah

Sunday, December 12, 2010

ive been ATTACKED and i say..IT IS WAR!!!

wow...supercoolness!!!
hahaha..today.pagi2 aku dah bangun sebab mmg malam tadi aku sengaja tidor awal sebab nak bangun pagi nie...
so i decide to jog..wahaha..hari2 semalam2 btul2 merunsingkan minda aku dan menyebakkan perasaan aku!! wahaha...aku pon maseh buntu dengan jawapan yang aku rase belum kukuh untuk aku smapaikan pada sesiapa pon..sebab aku tahu mereka tak dapat rase ape yang aku rase..sebab aku jerk yang tahu ape yang aku rasa. hahaha...yup!! aku maseh bersedeyh dan bertambah sedeyh dengan geembira yang aku terima semalam!! terima kasaeh la wahai warga pendidik bangsa!!!

aku tau aku kerdil, aku tau aku tidak punye ape2 dan aku juga tahu aku maseh kanak2 hingusan yang maseh mentah dalam dunie.tapi kalau ini yang dipersembahkan dan dipertontonkan untuk aku....aku perlu cari jalan detour yang aku sendiri perlu buat untuk memastikan aku tidak sesat lagi dengan dunia yang aku rasa sangat menyesatkan!!! wow!!! aku tak sangka aku dah terokainye sampai kesini...

while i jog just now, so much dalam kepala aku yang sangat mengusarkan hati aku dan memilukan benak aku..i walk as fast as i can just to avoid it coming to my heart until one point, where i sat at the buiann...i felt so much pain in my heart.and air mata aku luluh bagaikan terbukakne pitu empire air yang jarang2 dibuka just for mase2 kemarau sahaja. tons and entah...i never cried sebanyak nie untuk perkara nie. mungkin aku dah lama simpan.dan pike punye pike..aku rase di ATTACK!!! aku rase mcm ade perang between aku dengan mereka.

aku diattack dengan alasan yang tidak kukuh skali.personal attack. dan aku menjadi mangsa.aku menjadi mangsa!!! dalam perkara ini...aku just represent my artwork!!! a judgement perlulah diberikan kepada artwork yang aku berikan bukan kepada aku!!! IM JUST A PRESENTER artwork y7ang aku haselkan!!! dan bila perkara sebaliknya berlaku...maknenye aku dijudge bukan sebagai artwork...tetapi PERSONAL!!

aku tau aku terlalu kurang dan tidak mempunyai banyak kelebihan berbanding dengan orang lain..dan aku x perlu nak menyatakan kekurangan aku....wow!!! mungkin anda semua sangt perfet!!! im jelous!! hmm....but aku cube hari2 bangun dan menutup segala kelemahan aku supaya aku nampak same dalam semua segi~!!! aku pon manusia baisa mahukan ape yang korunk mahukan. dan yang pentingnye aku berkerja keras untuk memtup segala kelemahan aku supaya korunk x boleh tundukakkan aku just im not perfect!!! i so aku mangangap diri aku lebih MORE THAN PERFESCT!!yup!! kadang2 aku penat but i cant show..i cant hide and just sit in the corner melihat kejayaan yang korunk mwiliki...yup!! im not gonna fo dat!!!

so..ape masalahmye ngan aku!!! kenapa korunk perlu mengjudgekan aku dengan perkara2 yang korunk rase ade pada hanya fixikil dan personal untuk aku.aku dah berikan segala butir2 artwork yang perlu kau judgekan!!! adkah aku disekolah saket jiwa yang mane aku lah yang menjadi bahan assesment!!! owh tidak!!! owh mungkin tidak !!! aku maseh belum buta dan aku maseh belom nyanyuk!!! masalah ini kemudian aku rasakan bukan lah datang pada aku...dan bukan lah datang dari artwork aku....dan YA!! DATANG NYA DARI KAU!!! dan aku yakin...semua ini perlukan perubahan!!! aku yakin akulah orang yang perlu melakukan perubahan ini!

DISINILAH IANYA BERMULA!!!

so..lepas aku duduk dibuain tok masa yang agak lama...aku bangun!!! jalan dan terus berjalan smapai ke destinasi yang aku hendak tujui.....yup!!! aku maseh berdiri dan maseh boleh berjalan....nafas dan semngat yang membezakan kedau2 nya!! sebelum dan selepas!!


war,
farisya nadiah

Saturday, December 11, 2010

A.L.O.N.E and T.I.R.E.D

yup...i need help!! but i just dont noe where to find it. cos i really need it.
MAJOR SICKNESS AND IT SPREAD ALL OVER ME!! im at the weakest level of my life. and this is where i meet the damb evil character, EMPTY!!!

i have nothing to offer, im noat a good daughet nor a good sister, im not a good friend, not a good helper, not a good motivator and even worst im not good enough to solve this!!! im just tired and tired to just further this even i noe i have to be strong and stay in this play...but yaa!! for the first time...im at the TIREDEST place of my life. and feel just motionless and and give my body to lay and doing nothing. breathless....I HAVE NOTHING TO OFFER TO MYSELF OR TO OTHER!!!

i noe this is wrong...i just need time perhaps. let me be in my lowest level and hoping for me to come up a rise back. but yup....to this momment...i feel scared, alone, and lonely.

i just need someone to just understant every motion i produced without im telling it and tell me infront of my face i can do better and yet im the strongest person than no other can compete.i need someone to just ask me to breath again or even push me hardly to breath again. where i noe im still breathing, it just i feel amn tired to do so. wat can be.....im just a total normal human being. i have my ups and down where people hardly can tell except for myself!!! yup...i surrender for today!!! today i have lost my myself and the power that i always show!! let me be in this "time" for a moment and comtinue mylife back like always...





love,
farisya nadiah

Monday, December 6, 2010

BLENDER

DONT TRY HARD TO BLEND IN COS THERE IS so LAME TO BE A BLEND-ER IN SOCIETY!!


INDIVIDUAL THAT MAKE U BETTER AND BOLD
:) :)
proudly be farisya nadiah musa <3


love,
farisya nadiah

budak Giler.!!






and thier not so GAdget!!! :)

love,
farisya nadiah

sALaNg TioMan wit LoVe



















Monday, November 22, 2010

question : HAVE U DID IT??


HAHAHA.....it is funny though at first time i heard it from ur mouth!!! wat kind of question is it??? and wat it suppose to mean?? haha....and wat worst i cant believe that i heard it from u? FROM u? ya...dis is not funny but yet i found it is more complex than u think it is.

the answer must be something like this:
1) i must be the most KUNOS women ever..
2) im a total geek about it..
3) ......shocking...........
4) YUP!! I NEVER THOUGHT SOMEONE close to me WILL ASKING THIS QUESTION TO ME!!
5) still speechless

yup!! i knoe this kind of funny and normal to u...but through dat journey...im asking myself again and again...should i answer..or should i not!!>???

TRUTH
should i tell u the truth...cos it will be so ridiculous to answer!! wat so special of that matter until u seems so proud to say about it loudly!! becosi know it seems an easy question...but ya...the way u handle and asked it to me...dat really matter!!! i dont noe wat are u thinking.im not a little girl anymore my dear friends. and i dont think dat questions are relevent to us anymore!! wahahah...so small matter but yet when u end up asking me about it with a total judgement, wahaha...i dont see it as a normal QUESTION anymore. haha..do u proudly said dat u have done it and u must be more experiance than me?? should i have to act like that or the question itself show that meaning indeed. huh i cant think more...yup im deal this life with higly imagination of mine. but to be true...im dont consider myself so AMBITIOUS about it!! yup totally...

LIE
hahahaha..i noe wat are u guys thinking...hahaha...im totally kidda of virgin merry and lack of experience in life!!! wahahah....kelakar....the way u projest it to me iu can really guess wat u guys are thinking~~~ wahhaha...kelakar sunnguh la isu nie~~ adei!!! and u guys must be kidding me!! adeyh

but the main point is.........wat is so important for me to answer that question??? to knoe me deeply??? or just to checked out me wether im use to it or not!!! hahaha...and plus all the assum[tion that u guys made to me..haha totally corrupted!!!

FYI!!

my life is not based on how many people i go out and how many people i date!! seriously it is not been my hard time langsung!! plus....yes i have alot of thinngs dat i imagine!!! i use it all the time!!! every single minute!!! BUT to be true...i DONT THINK IM USING ALL MY ENERGY TO THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING FOR THEM!!!! 0.001% seriuosly...i dont have to be worried if i have done wrong to anyone or i have cheating on him or called, pretending,mrs perfect,dump all my ambition just for them and so many to listed!!!!! i got nothin to make me as ammusement to them and let me be in the zone of pleasant. i have nothing to hide and nothing to be ashamed about myself!!! dat my guarantee...i knoe this is not the time for me yet!!! and one day...i will!!! who know wat gonna happen to our future!!!

actually it is hard for me to describe all the solid feeling about this matter...but ya!!! i think dis is sometime i have to let it out!! and i have mu own way of thinking about thins matter...if u as afriend of mmine...u shouldnt be asking me that question again!!! and throw all the judgement about me dat day....becos i knoe im not a perfect human but im trying to be a human here!!! there always pros and cons to be wat we are!!! i dont have wat u get and u dont have wat are mine!! so i respect u and u should be the same way too!!!

hahaha....i noe it seem a huge matter for me when u read dis....but sadly to say dat...dat day while we are trying to bond to each other and get closer to each other...u make a bad move!! that time i feel far apart from u rather than i feel it any other time!! hahaha..yup!!!


p/s: haha...1st half of this is qiute merepek...so it is due to some emotional ntah ape yang berlaku!!! so and malas to edit!! so...ya!! it is a draft!! wat the hell is wrong with that risght!!!

love,
farisya nadiah

Sunday, August 29, 2010

akirnya~~~



lame gile keep on searching who sing this so...today,finally..found it!!

from sabhi sabdi..nadiku!!!

wink2!!


love,
farisya nadiah

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

IF COME TO LOVE.....

ILL SURRENDER....
NOT MY FIELD OF EXPERTISE
N YET STUPID N DUMB!!!!


LOVE,
FARISYA NADIAH

PEE DEE WEWEWE~~~


















thanks for the memory....

love,
farisya nadiah!!