HAHAHA.....it is funny though at first time i heard it from ur mouth!!! wat kind of question is it??? and wat it suppose to mean?? haha....and wat worst i cant believe that i heard it from u? FROM u? ya...dis is not funny but yet i found it is more complex than u think it is.
the answer must be something like this:
1) i must be the most KUNOS women ever..
2) im a total geek about it..
3) ......shocking...........
4) YUP!! I NEVER THOUGHT SOMEONE close to me WILL ASKING THIS QUESTION TO ME!!
5) still speechless
yup!! i knoe this kind of funny and normal to u...but through dat journey...im asking myself again and again...should i answer..or should i not!!>???
TRUTH
should i tell u the truth...cos it will be so ridiculous to answer!! wat so special of that matter until u seems so proud to say about it loudly!! becosi know it seems an easy question...but ya...the way u handle and asked it to me...dat really matter!!! i dont noe wat are u thinking.im not a little girl anymore my dear friends. and i dont think dat questions are relevent to us anymore!! wahahah...so small matter but yet when u end up asking me about it with a total judgement, wahaha...i dont see it as a normal QUESTION anymore. haha..do u proudly said dat u have done it and u must be more experiance than me?? should i have to act like that or the question itself show that meaning indeed. huh i cant think more...yup im deal this life with higly imagination of mine. but to be true...im dont consider myself so AMBITIOUS about it!! yup totally...
LIE
hahahaha..i noe wat are u guys thinking...hahaha...im totally kidda of virgin merry and lack of experience in life!!! wahahah....kelakar....the way u projest it to me iu can really guess wat u guys are thinking~~~ wahhaha...kelakar sunnguh la isu nie~~ adei!!! and u guys must be kidding me!! adeyh
but the main point is.........wat is so important for me to answer that question??? to knoe me deeply??? or just to checked out me wether im use to it or not!!! hahaha...and plus all the assum[tion that u guys made to me..haha totally corrupted!!!
FYI!!
my life is not based on how many people i go out and how many people i date!! seriously it is not been my hard time langsung!! plus....yes i have alot of thinngs dat i imagine!!! i use it all the time!!! every single minute!!! BUT to be true...i DONT THINK IM USING ALL MY ENERGY TO THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING FOR THEM!!!! 0.001% seriuosly...i dont have to be worried if i have done wrong to anyone or i have cheating on him or called, pretending,mrs perfect,dump all my ambition just for them and so many to listed!!!!! i got nothin to make me as ammusement to them and let me be in the zone of pleasant. i have nothing to hide and nothing to be ashamed about myself!!! dat my guarantee...i knoe this is not the time for me yet!!! and one day...i will!!! who know wat gonna happen to our future!!!
actually it is hard for me to describe all the solid feeling about this matter...but ya!!! i think dis is sometime i have to let it out!! and i have mu own way of thinking about thins matter...if u as afriend of mmine...u shouldnt be asking me that question again!!! and throw all the judgement about me dat day....becos i knoe im not a perfect human but im trying to be a human here!!! there always pros and cons to be wat we are!!! i dont have wat u get and u dont have wat are mine!! so i respect u and u should be the same way too!!!
hahaha....i noe it seem a huge matter for me when u read dis....but sadly to say dat...dat day while we are trying to bond to each other and get closer to each other...u make a bad move!! that time i feel far apart from u rather than i feel it any other time!! hahaha..yup!!!
p/s: haha...1st half of this is qiute merepek...so it is due to some emotional ntah ape yang berlaku!!! so and malas to edit!! so...ya!! it is a draft!! wat the hell is wrong with that risght!!!
love,
farisya nadiah
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