mood : new

hey2...super fucking awesome song!! hell yeah!!!

love,
farisya nadiah

before 30

be at somewhere unfamiliar, deal wit total strangers, different language, unknown culture, contrast system, weird air-smell, bizarre food


and

be

ZERO HERO.:)

love,
farisya nadiah

him

love,
farisya nadiah

im bad in drawing...i do!
it took me long time to realise...
and it sux to admit it....
i try hard to make it work...
and sometimes i end up forget how to start...
untill a while..

i dont dislike it...but neither passionate about it.
i really do!
it is untill i realise everytime i try i kindda forcing myself..
compare to others who thrown it out smoothly as easy as water flowing.
i forced my self to believe it.
even hard how envy i am, make me hate myself more.

i try to make it work..becos i believe i can do everything that i wish i can..
try to learn..
try to brush every line, color each column, and even experiment with the element i got.

until i hate when it stuck in my head...
until it leaves me with a black blank in my head..
wat i am supposed to do next?
wat color am i supposed to do..?
wat concept??? wat feeling that i should throw in it?
wat line, is it mass, or just a tiny sketch line i should do?
i want it to be perfect? i want it to be as wat i think my mind would be..
until that black blank spot emerged to something again...

i just want the drawing to be as wat it seen underneath..
not just as simple as line nor color..
wat inside it...

N NOW...THIS IS LIFE.

LOVE,
FARISYA NADIAH

I totally feels like a bitch n an evil person...
When u asked me what I'm afraid of...
I would say I'm afraid of disappoint people ESP people I love..
And now if u ask me again watt I'm is biggest fear...
I it would be disappoint myself and make an enemy to myself...

But if u asked me again watt ur biggest interest????
It would be : MAKE EVERYONE HATE ME EVEN MAKE I HATE MYSELF EVEN MORE....
And dis shit SUX!!!!!!

Fuck up,
Farisya nadir

brush-up

drama dat origanaly created. :)

by Edward Enninful

love,
farisya nadiah

i let it fall first then i say...

Steppin', stormin'
I'm all gone
Give me a tone and I'm all gone
Yeah, I'm walkin' by the line
I hear that in my mind

I'm workin' a sweat
But it's all good
I'm breakin' my back
But it's all good
'cause I know I'll get it back
Yeah, I know your hands will clap

Yeah, I'm workin'
Yeah, I'm workin'
To make butter for my piece of bun

And if you say I'm not OK
Then that's the goal
If you say there ain't no way that I could know
If you say I aim too high from down below
Well, say it know 'cause when I'm gone...
You'll be callin' but I won't be at the phone

And you're hanging around 'til it's all done
You can't keep me back once I've had some
Wasting time to get it right
And you will see what I'm about

Yeah, I'm workin' a sweat
But it's all good
I'm breakin' my back
But it's all good
'cause I know I'll get it back
Yeah, I know your hands will clap

And if you say I'm not OK
Then that's the goal
If you say there ain't no way that I could know
If you say I aim too high from down below
Well, say it know 'cause when I'm gone...
You'll be callin' but I won't be at the phone

love you, lyke li

love,
farisya nadiah

if i have a written dairy again...

love,
farisya nadiah

what's on ur mind?

packing my things...
everything...
wait for my bus at the bus station...
that leads me to a jetty..
took a ferry...
and let the journey begin...
do wat ever i love the most...
live the life like it always does..
wit out thinking all the burden inside..
with out feeling the undescrible feeling..
and without caring the burden underneath..
and for sure without seeing the hideous mirror of myself.
jut enjoy the blue ocean n wishing alway nearer to it all the time.

pack my things...
everything..
prepare everything inside the car..
make sure everything is complete..
whishing everything are not miss out..
especially the CAMERA..the secret potion.
go to pam station..
reload smart tag till full
pay the gasses in full amount..
buy the junkfood..alot of it..
incase there is no more shop availabe in the journey..
redbull esp...
take a snap of the last visited gas station.
owhh....a mix cd have to be the must item..
lets rain hot cold snow or even thunder will be my best friend.
let them know if im scared lonely or happy
they will decide what my mood are...
and pray for a better day for tommorrw...
every day is a new day..
dont let yesterday kill ur day..


love,
farisya nadiah

be good listener

i just need to listen to my own "voice" more

love,
farisya nadiah

currently

i hate waking up in the morning hoping it still nite
hoping u have more time to sleep
hoping i can always on bed
and hoping u can sleep forever

and currently i just love to sleep n stop thingking n doing nothing.

arghhhh!!!!!

warghhh seriusly......

i dont noe wat to do!!! ahahahaha...
stumble across my own doing but hardly to process.

just one question: is there any hope?

love,
farisya nadiah

fwd: stupid things

huh

stupid thing

still am passive-ing myself.
i cant digest
i cant process

feels like im letting it go
but indeed am feel harldy to breath
confused
and best thing speechless n motionless

most stupid thing is..
i push everyone important out from mylife..
hoping i can handle it my own.
but too bad it is just a bad move
where it is actually to hurting myself even more.

am i DAT stupid?

love,
farisya nadiah

hilang...terasa kembali!!

i felt yup release....
all the hampers are all delivered safely...
all the payment are all settle...
just a few kueh jerk tinggal...
and it is time to celebrate!!

a toss of "i did it"!! aha.....
it is enough...yup!!!

thenn.......

jeng2...

that thing is coming back!!!

and DAMN DA DEVIL TO THE HELL!!

arghh

wasalam

love,
farisya nadiah

"aWesome TEars"

all the pic is genuinely from my family's collection. fuh..it bring me tears at firt i saw it!! such a wonderfull peace!! awsome!!!

love,
farisya nadiah

my TOP treat

sory to abondend u guys for longggggggggggggg time..but ive got new idea n concept for u guys!! hiks...

so just wait n se k my sayang rambut!! hiks.

love,
farisya nadiah

varsity jacket

about quite sometimes ive searching for this jacket..
i did found one from topshop long time ago but that time ive got no money..
urghh..it just perfect..blue n red.just nice..
too bad it wasnt my day to have it...

so anyone......i just wish this for this raya..!!

and of course vans n hermes shoes!!

wanting,
farisya nadiah

tolong

knowing about how how malaysian fashion writer works lately make my heart sick of them. dats y la fashion magazine malaysia mcm hampeh jugak!!

ok.so.need.luar.just.too.see.how.everything.works!!
urrgh

p/s: just give me this is enough


marah,
farisya nadiah

hotly from McQ oven

love the add!! buruk but yet chantek!! :)

special entry

hye YONG!!!
nice to noe u read my blog all this while..
hiks...
thanks for supporting ur lovely, beautiful, and wonderful sister...
which is me FARISYA NADIAH...
hiks...
read2...go ahead..
i wont shut down ur computer againn...
hiks
may u feel blessed by all my tought
hiks...

p/s : amaran keras..dont read it infront of me AGAINNNNNNN!! im super shy little cute girl..hiks :)

shame,
farisya nadiah

selmat malam...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strenght to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn’t so

What was left when that fire was gone
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it’s like moving on

And I don’t even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
Picking up those pieces now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

This is not the end
This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something emptys within em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

someword : DENIAL

im not sure wat ive been facing lately...
but dat word keep on pop out in my life frequnetly..
i still dont get it but im trying to know about it...
cos like someone said to me...

u cant keep on ignoring this..
cos untill the end u will never learn about it..
end untill the end u keepon blaming on this matter.,
no happy ending.

DENIAL?? DENIAL?? DENIAL??
am i? in which way? such as?
maybe i need someone to xplain about it in more depth exlanation,
n try to make me believe it,
cos i noe im hard to believe everything....yes seriuosly i do!!

u talk to like u know me??? like u noe me better than everyone else...
y isssit suppose to be like tjis?
u r stranger to me n even ur word make me think about it even more.
AM I?
try to convience me
then i let u knoe....

“It's not denial. I'm just selective about the reality I accept.”

love,
farisya nadiah

pelajaran pertama

Virgo Strength Keywords:

- Analytical
- Observant
- Helpful
- Reliable
- Precise

Virgo Weakness Keywords:

- Skeptical
- Fussy
- Inflexible
- Cold
- Interfering

Virgo and Independence:

Virgo is a very independent zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves. It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives. They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves.


Virgo and Friendship:

People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically. They are truthful, loyal and determined. Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial. A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling. Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.


Virgo and Business:

Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind. This makes them good investigators and researchers. They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators. Virgos are very good at problem solving, this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order. They are rational thinkers and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation. Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order.


Virgo Temperament:

Before a Virgo plunges into anything, from a problem to a vacation idea, they need to analyze all the facts and know all the details before they plunge in and make a decision. This makes them seem indecisive and slow. Virgo's perception is their reality, more so then other astrology signs. What they believe is what will be, if they have a negative outlook on life, things will present themselves to be negative and they will be very moody and isolated/detached. If they are positive, the same events that occur will be held in a positive light and they will be a pleasant, well adjusted person. A Virgo mind is a very powerful mind and they must have the proper attitude for their life to be happy and successful. Virgo needs to get in touch with their feelings, this is why they usually seem cold or detached. They are very prone of living in denial. They will say the feel okay or everything is alright even when it's not. This is an easy way out, the one thing that Virgo does not like to analyze is their feelings so pretending everything is okay is a good defense mechanism for not having to take a closer look at their feelings. Virgo has an unpredictable and sometimes unstable temperament.


Virgo Deep Inside:

They need to be organized in their mind, sometimes all their energy is taken from organizing their mind that they have a difficult time organizing their surroundings. They easily look too deep into an issue and over analyze what they percept. Virgo is ambitious and strives to always know more and have more. This is in their eternal quest to bring order to chaos. Even if order is obtained from an outsiders' point of view, Virgo will not be settled for they have a very active mind that is always thinking and can never be silenced. Virgos want to be of use, they need to be important and essential to everyone in their lives and in everything they do. Virgo's major life lesson is to learn to trust in and have faith in the unknown. They have to understand that things in life happen for a reason that is not always known to them, they do not have to always know everything. They need to learn to calm down and not over-analyze a situation or event. Deep inside, Virgo is very sensitive and they need to be appreciated for all the things they do. When is Virgo is offended or hurt, they may never show it.


Virgo in a Nutshell:

Virgo exists in the mind, everything is inside. To the world, Virgo presents a calm and collected exterior but on the inside, nervous uncontrolled intensity in the mind, trying to figure things out, how to improve everything, analyzing and thinking. Virgo can tire itself out without even moving! Virgo has a constant drive to improve and perfect, this can lead to extreme pickiness and finickiest. They are pure, their motives are honest never malicious and they want to accomplish something.

farisya nadiah

"hujan matahari terbit"

lately, dengan mase yang begitu luas untuk aku...dan aktiviti yang sgt "sempit", aku lebih tergolong di kalangan orang yang memerhati. oleh itu aku lebih cenderung untuk mengabeskan masa "luasku" dengan menonton vcd n dvd.

deisebabkan influnce korea adala hebat pada alam ini dan akak ku juga merupakan peminta setia.. jadi aku telah diracuni penyakit ini juga. maka bermulalah episod hari2 aku dengan cerita2 korea yang aku masih belum juga tahu untuk bertutur bahasa tesebut. i should try someday n be fluence in that languange, so that x payah la aku terhegeh2 bace subtitle yg diberikan.

we got married

secret garden

music bank,(mtv version korea)

and alot more to list

group pon banyak jugak la aku dah update n dinputkan kedalam kotak pemikiran aku...thank kerana aku telah berjaya menambah ilmu tentang k-pop industry.

so, that later evening aku terdetik dihati unutuk membuka channel ONE HD yg ade di astro beyONd. fyi, astro beyond diinstall oleh akak aku atas sebab ade saluran korea nie la.aahahah..wat a dye hard fan kan akak aku nie..ngeh2!! so i look on this talk channel called WIN WIN. and the guest is RAIN. n memang sbelum nie aku mmg suke gak rain sblum aku kenal orag2 yang lain.

so, ntah ade perasaan ape yg timbul dalam sanubari nie bila aku dgr setiap persoalan yang dijawab oleh rain dan disitu timbul satu kesedaran bagi aku..

where " u cant get wat u want unless u really try hard to achieved it" yg mmg sinonim untuk aku rase. plus "hardwork is the only key to everything" yup!! bile adenye suara ini terdetik didalam minda aku....

hey girl wake up, dont make ur life full of shit and all the semangat yang ade pade aku dulu tetiba kembali bangun dan bersama2 menujah aku untuk terus mara semula. apa ada pada kegagalan untuk diratapi...ape yang ada pada bukan sempurna kecuali memperbaiki. mane ade sesuatu yg perfect. aku hanya memberikan pelbagai alasan untuk aku tidak berjaya.

artist2 korea yang aku kenallately nie..sume dlm lingkungan permulaan 20an. meraka telah menjelajah dunia dimana perkara ini amatlah aku idamkan. tapi dorang bukan simply can get it. they have to sacrifise, they have to let go something they like, they have to train alot. and wah...tiada wujud kemalasan bagi mereka. then aku kat cnie ape kurangnye pada mereka.even aku dah nak masuk separuh 20an, aku kene cuba mengubah itu semua.

bak kate rain, dlu die hidup susah ade saket kulit sebab die tak mamupu nak beli baju. bile die menari baju itu akan dpkai berulang2 kali sebab kemiskinan.but until then dia x penah putus asa.wow ive leart alot la from him dat nite. jgn takut gagal but just jadikan ia sebagai pengajaran masa akan datang. supaya x diulangi lagi!aku akan cube. aku akan cube.

aku takut untuk tidak berjaya. aku takut aku x da masa hadapan. aku takut aku gagal. aku takut aku susah.dan yangpaling aku takut aku tidak ada apa yg dpat disumbangkan pada mereka yang aku sayang. aku perlu takut. aku takut jika aku tidak takut.dan sekarang aku takut sebab aku x takut.

love,
farisya nadiah

"cat fight"

yeay.....

gaduh ngan mak

gaduh ngan ayah


yeayy.....

bagus x yah makan, bagus x yah ckp, bagus x yah wat pape...

itu yg kau nk kan!!


p/s: saye anak yang nakal!! mekaseh!!


semak,
farisya nadiah

graphicly admit!!

"something floating in my mind"

arghh...
lately im facing a real punch from the action ive made!!

from the decision that i know wat will it be in the end result.
until it happen im not satisfied....

and now...urghh im hating this cos im always get myself in to trouble dat i noe where hte path will leads me...

n now i felt so BANGANG n BENGANG!!

n i felt so guilty and even afraid to face it along while on the other hand im shame to share these mistake to my friends.i just a shame to myself and to revieled this will cos a blood to my heart.i dont want to slice it anymore.dam it!!

but i really need the courage from them. and yeah im not strong enough ISYA!! im not strong!!! i just shamlessly afraid of eveything!! afraid to share and even worst afraid to ADMIT EVERYTHING!!!

arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

saket otak n terasa bangang,

farisya nadiah

WeLCoMe..: CINTA SYAWAL

WeLCoMe..: CINTA SYAWAL: "sebarkan cinta anda kepada orang tersayang dengan aumm cookies di pagi syawal 2011 yg akan menjelang tiba... ~pistachio finger~ price : ..."


yummies ever!!!!

super OLD post!!

hiks..lame gile x update!! this is some of my buhsan2 thingy ...
:)
<3

love,
farisya nadiah

SADDD NEWSSSSSSSSSS~~~:(..

******ALFATEHAH**************

we all gonna miss u mak lang. raya, kenduri or family gathering will not be the same without u by ourside. ur "melatah" will always make me smile and the way u talk will always stuck in my head FOREVER. i brought up in this world with all the joke i made from ur personality.

GUNTIN???? KENCIN???? pening???

hahhaa....totaly i laugh to that...and now im gona tears but im sure my tears wil always wit a smile and huge laugh at heart just because of the remeberance of u.

u are like mother to me.

hahah...u took care of me since i was small. ehehehe.....wat a cheer moment.

:) :)

and today after watching u dat day for the last time in my life......it feel WOW!!!! im not small anymore like we used to be before. i have to take care of myslef just by myself.

yup this is a sad entry so bear ur tears might be fall off. (i??? sure it does)

i will update more on this later....

love,
farisya nadiah

keGEMOKan SUDU

****we just love SUDUing our soul wit happiness****

love,
farisya nadiah

H.O.P.E

love,
farisya nadiah

payoFF "parking LOt"

Lindesy Wixson







As the face of Alexander McQueen, Mulberry and Jill Stuart as well as Versace's newest fragrance, Lindesy Wixson is the model of the moment.
But the teenager, who made headlines this week when she fell several times at Naomi Campbell's Fashion for Relief fundraiser, revealed in an interview today how she struggled at school with bullying classmates who mocked her unusual looks.
She admitted that she felt skinny, tall and self-conscious, describing it as 'the worst time of my life'.



Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1389316/Tumbling-teen-supermodel-Lindsey-Wixson-getting-laugh-school-bullies.html#ixzz1N2V4Jt4q

love,
farisya nadiah

BERKEHENDAK SAKAN!!!!

--PULAU--KASUT--BUKU--PERSALINAN---


LOVE,
FARISYA NADIAH

@2AM

overall....this is my fave!! haha

love,
farisya nadiah

2AM at 6p.m!! aha

hahahaha......

DIGI LIVE K-POP with @2AM
menara MCA, jalan ampang
6p.m
with farim shamuna


this is so YONG's agenda...
aku menjadi para peneman setia dan pemngambil gambar jeritan profesional..
ahaa...but the end of it..
mane jerk pegi x fun kalau kite x fun kan diri sendiri.
ehehe...yup!!! aku pon menjerit gile sakan.
macan kenal la wei gile la laki2 jambu tuh mcm kawan.
so long ago until this adrenalin production hebat berfungsi.
aha...so much fun
and yang penting aku jerit sampai anak tekak x tertahan keperitan.

hehehe...owh bile nak g real cncert lagik!! haiyak!!!

love,
farisya nadiah

ET SELAMAT PULANG KE PLANET!!!

cogratulation to both my friend DINIe and HASHIMAH. they have completed thier final collection just in time. im happy for them. and later dat day...we were celebrating thier complete collection in the fashion show...

yeay.. they finally arrived at the finish line and yet im in a way to cathing them from behind. so gud luck to both of u in future where i can see there must be a heavenly feeling after untouched with uitm. hehe....and there must be an outstanding job waited for both of u guys. amin.

yeay.....coming on unbreathly catching up...ME!! isnyalllah!!!

love,
farisya nadiah